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Schrödinger’s Arab

13 Mar

I never really cared whom I date or sleep with, as long as he’s hot, clean, and hung. Well, so I do care. I will also admit I have a type. Somewhat darker skin, dark hair, big eyes, lush lashes… You get the picture.

So I met a lot of Middle Eastern guys not all of whom are Jewish Israelis. I mean to say, I dated a lot of Arabs, and this is where Jewish rightwingers usually start clamouring that I should be raped and murdered for being the “whore of terrorists” – or assimilating at all. I find this especially ironic coming from Jews, but let’s not. I’m not even Jewish, I just pass as such because I’m a white-passing Israeli. I only pass as white because of my Protestant-but-Atheist German mother. My father, a brown man from two Iraqi parents, only shines through in my sarcasm and penchant for writing. My Mum’s no longer official religion also saw me registered as Christian in Israel, because yeah, they kinda register your religious affiliation on your ID card, or they did, so now they only register it in your file. “Ethiopian” also tends to get registered, while “Russian” or “american” sure doesn’t. But this type of racism is not what I want to talk about right now. Let’s just say, it’s rampant.

Schroedinger’s Arab – be a terrorist, don’t be a terrorist, but please confirm our bias and prove us wrong at the same time.

So I’m basically as Christian as the Arab guy I had an unlucky crush on. I’m as Christian as the other Arab guy this guy unwittingly introduced me to, or at least he implied he was Christian once. Since that Arab guy is also a celebrity, I befriended some fans of his, also Christian Arabs. We ended up going to a festival in Jordan together, thrown and main-gigged by said celebrity, and we all had a good time. Upon re-entry to Israel, however, nerves grew raw. The girls passed through security without a problem, and when I think back, it’s probably because none of them seem “typically Arab”. Y’know, hijab and explosive vest, all that. Pierced, tattooed, dreadlocks, torn jeans, short hair, rockabilly, not how you imagine radicals. But we waited what felt like a half hour for the boys. I say boys, because the oldest was 19, I think. When it dawned on me what was happening, I wanted to go in and exploit my “white Jew” privilege to vouch for them, when they came out, tired and scowling. One said, “I don’t wanna talk about it”, because he was pissed past talking. You could see it took him quite a bit of restraint to not burst into a raging fit. He was a 17-year-old geek whose penchant for violence was limited to the same super hero and anime franchises I liked. But after he had his backpack searched more thoroughly than mine when we met up a year later, I was sure: if this guy was to ever pick up a gun and shoot into a crowd, blame Israel’s anti-Arab mentality according to which he can either be a terrorist or garbage, or both. Not someone to be trusted, not someone to dedicate the front page to were he to join and die in the army. Not someone who has any reason to value us, because we don’t value him. Individually, some of us might, I do, but the white Jewish collective? They’ll leave him for dead. He will always be expected to prove that he’s better than other Arabs, while he will also always be expected to confirm that Arabs are “human animals” as they’re often called. Schroedinger’s Arab – be a terrorist, don’t be a terrorist, but please confirm our bias and prove us wrong at the same time.

Palestinian terrorists follow Hamas because while Israel is robbing them of reasons to live, Hamas, at least, is giving them a reason to die.

Having to work twice as hard to get half as much is what brings me to my ex, who’s Muslim, not that he cares, but “Israel’s dominant demographic” very much does. While he gobbles down pork chops and drives drunk like the raging student and rebellious brother of too many sisters that he is, the army makes damned sure not to encourage him to enlist and abuse the weapon he’s handed. He could, but he absolutely doesn’t have to. Ethical issues of Arabs recruited to shoot Arabs on behalf of Jews aside, (dis)trust is obviously a factor.
And society makes damned sure not to encourage him to take up too much space in general, because no matter what kind of helpful, contributing, life-saving career he envisions, what a loving soul we all know he is, he’ll always be less-than. A few years ago, this racism at least energized him, even if through anger. He said, “The next person who gives me shit for being Arab, I’m gonna punch him.” I wanted to say, “Don’t, because you’ll be trayvoned*,” but didn’t want to make him feel even more hopeless. And as we were talking about an ongoing war between Israel and Gaza, he said something about going there to get himself killed – as food for thought for the fighting parties. Like, right, nobody is going to care. That’s the sad thing. A Jewish guy getting killed in the cross fire, sure, that’ll make headlines and sit Israelis down for a bit, but only to get up and hate Arabs some more, because obviously, Arabs are the only ones to blame for the conflict. If you ask a zionist. But an Arab? Israel is gonna laugh, because that’s one Arab who kindly got himself killed to make room for another Jewish immigrant. I didn’t share that bit of insight with him either, because why rub it in that he’s garbage in the eyes of Israel’s rule-making majority, the rightwing Jews? He nailed it when he said that Palestinian terrorists follow Hamas because while Israel is robbing them of reasons to live, Hamas, at least, is giving them a reason to die. I mean, they got universities in Gaza, but where are you going to take your degree? Nowhere, because you’re not getting out. And then, you get bombed.
And when I recently reminisced out loud about my short time with him, remembering how he complained I was going to die before him, and I replied “Keep talking that way and you’ll die before me”, he soberly answered that life and death have become all the same to him. Because while he still wants to find his raison d’être in charity and philantropy, he, too, feels robbed of reasons to live by this society. All the success and wealth he could achieve, and he would still feel like his life has no point, because we as a nation begrudge him that point.

A Jew murders his girlfriend, nobody bats an eye. An Arab guy dances during Memorial Day’s siren? “Fire him, kill him, rape his mother, bomb all those fucking terrorists!”

As a person who passes for both white and Jewish, I only know part of his struggle. I know the hate, discrimination, and dismissal I feel for being a fat female. However, while fatphobia is cruel and has a strong impact on its victims, fat people are not cooped up in shitholes that get bombed, bulldozed, or have their water cut off on a regular basis. My Arab friends may not live in the territories, but their people do. And all Arabs are the same to those oppressing these Palestinians, anyway. An Israeli Arab peds surgeon’s welcome in this country is as fickle as that of a Ramallah stabber. If said stabber snaps and stabs, the surgeon won’t be safe from the hatred and incitement that ensues. Guilt by association. A Jew murders his girlfriend, nobody bats an eye. An Arab guy dances during Memorial Day’s siren? “Fire him, kill him, rape his mother, bomb all those fucking terrorists!”

This isn’t about me. But it is. I’m part of Israel’s society, and I’m with the lucky part. The only problem I share with Arabs, is being cussed out for dating them. Since “dating” usually means “casual sex behind closed doors with no public hand-holding”, I can easily stay safe by not talking about it. But I have friends who live here knowing they are fair game. No, you can’t walk up and shoot Arabs as you please, but wait a second, yeah, you kinda can. I am afraid that these Arab people, especially young men, are Israel’s Trayvon Martin and Michael Brown. Hell, american cops don’t even have the homes of their black victims’ families bulldozed. On paper, Arabs have all the same rights as Jews. In practice, the collective bias wants to dismiss a victimized Arab’s complaint, and lock up any Arab upon accusation, no trial, no investigation. Schroedinger’s Arab – victim or perp, and somehow, both at the same time: they will call you a terrorist while burning you alive – you’re in a dark little box and nobody cares that you’re asphixiating in there while expected to do the expected and yet defy it.

And I’m not saying Arabs can’t make a nice life for themselves. But that doesn’t mitigate the fact that they live in a society that sneers at them and only expects the worst from, and wishes the worst upon them. How do you raise a happy, peaceful child in such miasma? How is this helping peace? How is it not obvious that most Arab violence against Israeli Jews can be traced back to said Arabs being treated like vermin? Is it reasonable to expect people to respond with acquiescence and submission when they get bulldozed, bombed, and kept from thriving? Walled in, starved, cut off from water, power, and economy? I will never defend acts of terror, but I am smart enough to see what prompts them, and it’s us. Hamas’ rhetoric of hate wouldn’t work if they didn’t have us proving them right over and over and over.

“All Arab Areas Access Citizenship” is a myth.

And to make this about me, because I like making things about me: I don’t know how to help. I have friends hurt to a point of numbness by this racism, and I can’t do much to help. We barely ever even meet. I want to tell them to leave the country for better places, but that’s easy for me to say – I have dual citizenship and am indeed leaving Israel, in part because I don’t want to be a part of this anymore. Arabs? Told by nutwing zionists to “go back to Jordan”, except, “All Arab Areas Access Citizenship” is a myth. So I’ll be leaving soon, a country that was never out to hurt me, leaving my friends behind to get angrier – or number – with every bulldozing and every bombing and every Palestinian kid with scissors getting shot dead because a trained soldier with an M16 “feared for his life”.

See, this is how you radicalize people. Nobody wants to be hated for no reason, so if all attempts at being accepted, fail… you give those haters a reason.

*killed with no repercussions for the killer, because his ethnicity makes it easy for the law to assume he asked for it

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Open Letter to the Palestinians

27 Mar

Dear Palestinians,

please cut it out? And I don’t mean the beating heart of another zionist. I understand your anger, I agree you are right to be angry, and the extent that I am capable of, even share it. What the Israeli government – my government – has been doing to you since the foundation of the state, is a disgrace and an atrocity, from the razing of houses to the shooting of children.

But for fuck’s sake. You will never free Palestine or end the occupation by stabbing, car-ramming, shooting, bombing, or otherwise attacking Israelis. Israel will always be stronger; you will never have our military power. And I understand that beyond logical motivations, there is the urge to continue a historical resistance, though futile, just to demonstrate your defiance and hatred of the situation. That, too, I understand. Only dead fish swim with the current.

But for fuck’s sake. You are helping the zionist agenda. Yes, you are helping the Israeli government oppress, rob, and kill you. Every time you attack an Israeli, my government says, “Look world, this is why we have to oppress them! This is why we have to take and control their land! This is why we bulldoze their homes! This is why we have to shoot them at the slightest suspicion of a butter knife in their pocket! Because they keep attacking us!”
You are doing my government a great favour by perpetually attacking us. You are justifying being treated like animals by behaving like animals. You think a prison is going to release a convict if and because he beats up the guards every time he’s let out into the cafeteria? No. This prolongs his sentence.

And Allah’s will? Seriously? Allah, the Gracious, wants you to walk into your death, break your family’s hearts, just so the zionists have an excuse to make your family homeless and abuse your people some more? Your struggle isn’t the only thing historical here. Your people, the Palestinians, being abused more every time one of you attacks an Israeli, is also a historical event that repeats itself without failure.

Every attack from you against us, makes your situation worse. I’m not telling you to love us. You’re right to hate us (well, not me, I’m nice, I give great head). I hate the government and its executioners, too. Hate us till the cows come home. We have not given you a reason not to. But for fuck’s sake, please internalize that your “armed resistance” is only making your situation worse. Yeah, we mourn our losses… But every single time, you get a disproportionately worse response, don’t you?

For fuck’s sake, cut it out. It’s stupid, pointless, and only moves you farther away from your goals. We will never lose to you, and my government will never leave you alone if you keep giving it excuses to abuse you. Stop this shit. I want both our people to live in peace, even if we can’t stand each other’s smell. But my government wants you to continue attacking us, because you are helping it abuse you.

Don’t do the zionists that favor.

Sincerely,
an Israeli

So non-Jews should fuck off.

12 Aug

To the person who told me I can piss right off my own birthland where her entitled voluntarily immigrated ass is throwing its obscene weight around, and to anyone who identifies with her attitude:

Aren’t you one bigoted dripping cunt, disparaging non-Jewish people who live, work, serve, pay taxes and otherwise contribute to the society you want to thrive in… I’m sure you’re happy your sacred chosen people usually aren’t the ones shoveling shit in the sewers you want clean for your ass to shit in. What would you do without Arabs and Sudanese? Shit in flower pots and smash a tomato tree on it, that’s what.

Judging by your age I’m afraid it’s too late to ask you not to breed. You’re an immigrant and think you got a bigger claim on the land I and countless other non-Jewish people are BORN on, that’s ridiculous. YOU can leave, we can not. You could’ve stayed where you were, we were never anywhere else.

So please stop confusing your asshole for your mouth, you fascist, racist, bigoted, hate-filled human sewer.

Police lets minors drink…

26 Sep

Gotta love the police.

This happened in Haifa, Israel.

I just went on an emergency olives shopping spree, because I was all out of olives and in withdrawal. On my way back through a park, I came past 3 Arabic-speaking youth sitting on a bench and drinking whatever it was, and talking.
Suddenly I hear someone yelling at them to “Leave the place now!”
I turn around to see a cop shining a flashlight at them from farther up the hillside park, and repeating his order for them to leave and pick up after themselves.
This seems wrong, so I call over, “Officer?”
He flashes his light right in my face, and I’m like, “Yup, me over here. Question. Since when is it illegal to sit in a public place?”
Cop: “They’re drinking alcohol. It’s illegal to drink in public, and they’re minors! They’re like, 14!”
I look at the 2 girls, all ass and tits and hoed up. “If they’re 14, humanity is lost!”
One of the girls, to her demise, shouted at him, “Yeah idiot, I’m 16!”
The cop is like, “Even worse!”
Me: “Worse to drink at 16 rather than 14, awright!”
Cop: “It’s illegal to drink in public, and it’s illegal for minors to drink period!”
Me: “Okay, so if the booze is the problem, confiscate it; don’t remove kids from a public park they get to be in! If minors with booze is what bothers you and you’re sending them somewhere else WITH it, there will just be minors with booze elsewhere.”
Cop: “As I said, it’s illegal.”
Me: “Yeah well, and they’re gonna illegal someplace else thanks to you. Take the booze and leave them alone!”
Cop: “Miss…”

I realized I was talking to a mouth breather and started to wonder if that flashlight, from that distance, was strong enough to establish that I was indeed a white Jewish female and in no danger of getting shot for my Bulldog looking like a gun or something. I told the kids he was a douchebag, one of them “smart” enough to pass it on to the cop (I’m-16-girl, obviously), and went home.

I successfully fought back the urge to ask if he’d have proceded the same if the kids weren’t Arab. I’ve seen Israeli police selectively protecting and serving according to ethnicity before. Up close, and in the news. Ignoring an Arab girl getting beat up by 2 Arab guys, violently arresting hundreds of Arab persons of interest in a murder case but being all gentle with identified Jewish murderers, etc. This is why I had meddled in the first place. From where that cop had been standing, flashlight or no flashlight, identifying their drinks as alcohol was an impressive feat but you could hear those kids talking very vulgar in Arabic from miles away. They had been sitting in a dark place where someone had to make a detour to get, and there was no light, so who called the cops on them KNOWING they were drinking, when they were out of sight, but not out of earshot? I doubt the alcohol had ever been the real issue. Otherwise it would have been confiscated. If minors aren’t allowed to drink at all, they’re not allowed to drink anywhere and just kicking them out of a public park isn’t enforcing shit. If as a cop, you catch a minor with an illegal substance, do you send him away with it?

And somewhere in Haifa tonight, a woman gets raped, a child gets beaten, or a man gets murdered because 2 cops were busy enforcing the prohibition of alcohol in public by removing the drinkers but not the alcohol, and without enforcing the prohibition of minors drinking altogether, because being petty with Arab kids who don’t know the law for shit, is just so very recreational.
So parents, if you find your kids passed out in your building, it’s because cops only care about removing the sight of drinking minors from the public eye, not the drinking from the minors. Because, you know, I’m against alcohol altogether, and I’m all for protecting minors from it. But this isn’t what happened here. What happened here, was police letting minors get drunk, but not while using their right to sit on a park bench.

Hell no.

Just an Arab.

23 Oct

My fellow Jewish Zionists will hate me for this, but I don’t believe in exclusionism or whatever you call it, when this country insists to be morally superior to the whole damn world.

I want to give an eyewitness example of how the ever-so-praised Israeli Jews do their part in keeping the Jewish-Arab chasm as deep as possible. It’s not just “settlers” who bully Arabs in news-worthy ways, it’s the whole system that does not honor its promise of racial and ethnic equality where it comes to things that have nothing to do with Jewish identity.

A few weeks ago, I had a guy over for the night. Woke up around 4, went to the living room. Even before falling asleep I had heard a girl screaming angrily at someone but couldn’t make out what, or in what language. Now it was still going on and I looked out the window to see what was happening. I found an Arab girl, not very religious from the looks of her outfit and hair, no older than perhaps 22, but more around 18, 19. 3 Arab guys the same age were with her. From what little Arabic I understood, she was angry at at least one of them, lots of “Achosharmuta” and something about mothers. At some point she shoved one of the guys who then grabbed her arm and pulled her into all 3 guys’ reach. She tore free and ran onto the road where a bus was pulling in. She begged the driver to let her in, but when he spotted the three other men, he decided he wanted nothing to do with this and drove off, almost hitting her.

The guy she had shoved, who seemed to be her main “opponent”, ran up to her, pulled her to her feet, punched her to the ground, and kicked her in the back.
At that point I shouted down at them that they need to weigh their actions with witnesses around. I was utterly ignored and the girl, being upset beyond coherent thought, lunged at the guy again, but only weakly lashing at him, not really dangerous in any way.
From just before I shouted at them, my date had joined me and while I was shouting and thinking about what chair to beat those guys up with, he grabbed me and said, “They’re just Arabs, don’t get yourself into trouble for those apes”. Ignored his remark and called the cops.

Now while the bus driver and my date were merely very damn disappointing (does it matter if they’re Arabs when 1 girl is attacked by 3 men?), the police really drained what little was left of my “Holy Land Yay”. Dispatcher asked, all guilty-like, “Are they Arabs?” and at first I thought she just wanted to know for identification purposes. Only later did I stop to think that “3 young men pouncing on 1 screaming girl” should be enough.
I understood why she’d asked that when the police came. They had sent 1 single young man to deal with this. Now the girl was screaming in Hebrew, and it turned out that one of those men had gotten her pregnant against her will (don’t know if it was rape or just irresponsible consensual sex), and in doing so, hurt her mother and her family honor. Judging by how upset she was about this, she must have been in real trouble or at least convinced that she was. The thing is, you don’t send a man to deal with these issues, you send along a woman, ideally an Arab woman who knows about Arab family values and understands why this girl was so distraught. In the end nobody was arrested and my neighbor, as much as I hate that ars for many valid reasons, walked her to safety.

So basically, Arabs here tend to be what African Americans are in the States. Only worth police attention when they (seem to) endanger white people, or here, Jews. Otherwise, send way to few cops way too late and have them do way too little because hey, it’s just Arabs. I don’t care how crazy that girl went on those guys and that she made too little attempts to walk away (when she did, they didn’t let her), they were three men ganging up on a pregnant girl. And the cops took their jolly time to send ONE utterly useless guy.

It’s no wonder Arabs are less than appreciative of their Jewish co-citizens. We desperately squeal Hasbarah all over the Internet and beyond and act all inclusive and accepting and make it all seem like the Arabs’ fault, but when you call the cops on 3 guys beating up 1 girl, ethnicity should not matter and all of Israel’s Hasbararians should be ashamed of this. Jews are doing their share to keep the hate flowing just as much as Arabs are. And it’s bad enough individuals are doing it, but police???

Is rape not bad enough?

27 Jun

The case is reported on here:

Rape victim asks State to recognize crime as terror act

 and

Tel Aviv rape: Palestinian arrested near crime scene

In all fairness to the victim, I hope this is not going through. While I am absolutely in favor of public executions for rapists and even those who enabled them, and while I think 20 years aren’t enough, as long as Benny Jaber wasn’t screaming “Allahu akhbar!”, this is not an act of terrorism. Prove his intentions qualify as such, and I’ll shut up.

If her request is granted, she will be considered a victim of a terror attack, thereby eligible to disability benefits by the Defense Ministry.

I’m sorry, but this is ludicrous. Yes, every rape victim, no, every victim of any form and degree of violent crime, should get the maximum support. But disability benefits for rape victims who are not suffering from Aids or permanent injury sustained during the rape? I sympathize, I do. I’ve known sexual abuse myself. But I’m sick of rape victims wallowing and indulging in their self-pity to a point where they use this as an excuse to depend on benefits. I had a friend once who tells everyone of how she got raped, and she does so with a winner’s smile. Well, she did win. She is now able to get disability benefits in addition to unemployment, so she gets to sit at home all day dressing up her daughter, or getting her nails done. She pretends she would like to work and be part of society, but “I can’t, because since the rape I can’t be around people anymore, it’s too distressing”. So why can she go to crowded restaurants, parties, pubs, clubs, etc. just fine and why has she got no problem cheating on her boyfriend with 4 members of his family? I thought she can’t be around people? Or is this only the case when it isn’t fun?

Rape victims should get all the therapy and support they need as long as they need it. But while they are not responsible for what happened to them, they are partially responsible for how they decide to deal with it. They can wallow and languish, but they can also get their act together. I’ve personally been through all kinds of traumatic experiences, not only sexually. I’ve known the horrific fear of incarceration in a foreign country with a brutal jail system, with nobody telling me why or how long for. So what? This was 3 years ago; why should I mooch unemployment and disability now?

I’m sorry, but the way she expresses herself – “He murdered my soul” – is way too poetic to be sincere. When you’re truly in shock, you blurt, you don’t write deep poetry.

It’s as if rape in itself, isn’t horrific enough. No, escalate to its recognition as terrorism. This girl’s behavior is a punch to the gut of every victim of actual acts of terrorism, and every victim of rape. “Yeah, I was raped, but honestly, there’s nothing to gain from that. I think I’m gonna throw in terrorism, too so I can get better benefits”.

But while this attitude offends me, something else deeply worries me. If her request goes through and they proceed to label this as an act of terrorism without any proof that this was indeed the motive behind the deed, this will have tremendous repercussions for all Israeli Arabs and/or Palestinians. Israeli Arabs are, as it is, in a similar position as African Americans: accuse them, and they’re arrested. Suspect them, and people will believe you.
If this girl gets her way, where will it end? If Benny Jaber did not indeed mean to commit an antisemitic hate crime, he is a regular rapist. Doesn’t that make him enough of a subhuman scumbag? If his being Palestinian and the victim being Jewish, is enough to call his crime an act of terrorism, then somewhere down the line, every crime or offense committed by an Arab against a Jew, may go down the same road. Some Arab stealing a candy bar from a Jewish store, may find himself accused of terrorism and handled accordingly. An Arab pulling out of a parking space and accidentally making a dent in a Jew’s car, may find himself fucked and done for terrorism; all it takes is a good argument and the Arab’s inability to prove that it was an accident.

In the long run, this would mean that every single Arab in Israel would have to be scared of being seen as a potential terrorist or indicted as such. And since most Israeli Arabs are no better or no worse people than Israeli Jews, one has to wonder whether this one girl’s comfort is worth such a price.

I wish the victim healing, and that she gets the support she qualifies for. I wish death upon Benny Jaber as I do upon any rapist. And I wish people could stop escalating the situation between Jews and Arabs on purpose.